12."Living in the fantasy world..and getting out of it!!"

My Deary,

Lately I've been thinking a lot about what Savy and Radhika taunt me all the time.Yes,like how will it be if Arjun and I were...eh..you know..together,as a couple.Okay okay I know its funny and pathetic as well.But if I see from the positive side we know each other since we were kids.I know everything about him.We have grown up together,seen each other in bad times,breaking down and getting up again,know each others strength and weaknesses and still manage to love each other unconditionally.Well,if I quote Savy,"Oh c'mon he's so cute and tall,he's one of the hottest guys of school.He's smart,talented and he cares about you so much and just think all the girls will be envious of you.You both would be the most popular couple in school and the best part is you both will have 'Benjabi' children with your eyes and his nose..a sexy combination." And I couldn't help but blush.Something is seriously wrong with me.This is so freaking awkward!!I mean I shouldn't be thinking like this.We both are best friends and that's it....or hopefully it is so.

Well I'm getting all confused now.Though today in school Arjun so behaving so weird.I mean he was sort of ignoring us or maybe only me.He didn't even say hi to me properly.He was busy the whole day and mostly with Cheryl.He didn't meet me in the break-time as well.I cooked some fish fries and brought them specially for him.He should have tasted atleast.I was feeling very bad.He's the school captain and needs to do a lot of work but then the free time he gets he should spend with us and not with the mini botoxy.Maybe I'm thinking too much,maybe something is wrong with me only..specially the blushing part.He did look surprised and his reaction wasn't pleasing at all.So before anything goes wrong I have to learn to control myself.So from tomorrow I'll be back to normal because sometimes getting into your fantasy world is very harmful.You always need to keep in touch with the reality.So I'll suppress all the changes taking place inside me and hope that they eventually fade away.

11." We all fall down"

My Deary,

Every morning we wake up with some agendas or pledges.Some promise to keep up their strength,some to crush other's dreams while some simply wish the day to easily pass.I promise today to be happy no matter what.

Dad was back from Toronto.I could not be happier and I rushed to hug him but he turned away.Something seemed wrong so I asked "Whats up dad?".He turned away from me and replied "I'm really tired right now,I need some sleep" and went to his room.This was quite unusual.Dad was the only person in my family I could rely on.Well maybe he was tired orelse why would he ignore me?!
Naina called us as she had something important to share with us.Apparently her universe revolved around Prithvi.So it has to be  about any other special thing he did for her.It was getting irritating now.All we know about Prithvi is he is Naina's  "perfect boyfriend" and was a part of the school's football team.
I told Debika about my dad's absurd behaviour.She felt I was over thinking about it.Maybe she was right.On the other hand she seemed a bit lost.I knew she was worried about Arjun as he was spending a lot of time with cheryl.I was pretty sure Debika liked Arjun but she didn't realise it yet.Anjalie was busy with her sketches as usual.She is indeed a very talented visual artist. I asked Akash about Varun.He told me Varun was fine.He and Varun are really good friends. And  Varun finally  came to school today.I called and asked about his mom everyday.Before I could talk to him class started.

After class I asked him"Hey!how have you been?your mom's better now right?".He replied with a boyish grin,"Yeah! chill,you seem more worried than me and I forgot how was the project?"."We got an A so I think we did fine and all thanks to you", said I.He said teasingly,"No it was all you,but we make hell of a team huh?".Suddenly Prithvi came out of nowhere and said mockingly,"Hey! I heard about your mom,hope she gets well soon orelse it would be tough for you people to pay the hospital bills,won't it?!".Varun was very angry  and upset.He left the classroom completely ignoring me.Maybe today is "World's Ignorance Day".

I joined others in the canteen later.Debika asked me what was wrong.But I could not say anything as I did not know myself.I asked her if she was fine and she she acted as if she couldn't be happier."Don't act in front of me ,I know you are a mahan 'debi' but not with me" I said."Arre I m fine just a bit worried that Arjun is forgetting us for that bitch",she blabbered."By us you mean you right?",I demanded.She answered "What? no don't start Again hes just a friend.".I did not want to talk about it more cause that would make her more upset.I spotted Varun leaving school campus abruptly.I had to go after him and ask him what was the matter with him.I stopped him and asked," Whats wrong with you? one moment you are talking to me the other moment you pretend I'm invisible! what is the problem Varun? tell me atleast!".He responded, "Nothing! you wouldn't understand"."Try me then", I pleaded."Prithvi is his son and  mom is getting discharged now,so I got to go  ",he jabbered. and left. At first I could not understand by 'his' whom he meant.Then I realised Prithvi was Varun's half brother.By "his" Varun meant his dad.Yeah life is messed up for him.

 I used to complain life is only unfair with me but after knowing Varun,it makes me think how easily I surrender to  my problems. Strength does not come from success ,our struggles,hardships develop our strength.We all fall down in life someday but only a true winner has the courage to fight back.Somehow Varun gave me the inspiration to face every obstacle in my life.Now I can proudly say to my life "BRING IT ON!".

10. "Lets go insane!!"

My Deary,

Sometimes being insane and lunatic is a good option.When we follow our daily routine monotonously like a ritual,take ourselves too seriously,try to act sensibly and reasonably in every situation,we need to go out of our way and do crazy things to understand that the world is not as hard as we take it.Sometimes we should just look at ourselves in the mirror at laugh at ourselves,make fun of anything and everything around,act silly and zany because being jobless is not a bad job!!

So last night's sleepover was amazing.(Oh c'mon it had to be!!You don't get to see pictures of half-naked boys on the beach every-time you go for a sleepover!!)"Okay I give up.These are really good.But you should thank me because it was I who came up with this wonderful idea."I stood up saying this with folded hands and head held high with pride...only to get hit with a pillow."Ouch!!" and the pillow fight began...and ended too quickly as well. Savy's maid who just entered the room with a smile on her face and pastries and cold drink on a plate and left the room with an irritated expression and pastries and cold drink all over her clothes.All thanks to Ms. Savitri who hit her with a pillow.We couldn't help but laugh :P

"Girls,You know what,Prithvi booked an entire screen for us so that we both can watch our favourite movie together without any disturbance. Ain't that cute?",Naina,Savy's neighbour,started a conversation about her "super-cute","super-rich" and (no,not superman) "super-loving" boyfriend.Damn,I felt so jealous,"Aww,you are so lucky Naina.No guy has ever done anything so special for me".I confessed and instead of consoling me,she just said,"I know". Radhika spoke up,"But Debu,Arjun does everything for you and all of them are very special."

"BUT HE'S NOT A GUY" and as I said this I saw zombie like faces around me with eyes bulging out and 'haww' faced mouths.

"Oh no no,I meant he is of course a guy but not that kind,you know..',I tried to make a puppy face and relax them but their former expression was intact.

"Okay okay,he's not a gay,it's just that we are very good friends,best friends and we don't think about each other that way..umm you people getting me right?"I tried to look innocent and confused and they burst out laughing!!Pathetic people!!!(Just like me :P)

"Oh Savy,tell me,how is "your" Shantanu doing?",I teased her and simultaneously changed the topic.

"Dare you take his name in front of me and I'll push you off the terrace",Savy tried to sound angry.

"Oh,I'm scared",I said sarcastically.

"Debu,you know he's so disgusting.I don't know what the hell is wrong with him.He's such a snob. What does he think of himself!!If he wasn't Arjun's friend,I would have banged his head with a pressure cooker."

"Calm down Savy.He's not as bad as you think.Let me sort this out then you people might think of signing a peace treaty.What say?",Radhika calmed her down.

"Chuck it.You hanging out a lot with that newcomer.What's going on babes?",Savy looked curious.

"Nothing.Varun is a nice guy and we were just doing the assignment together,That's it".Practical answers are all you can expect from Ms. Radhika Ambhore Chatterjee when we are talking about love.

"Seriously?"

"yeah...and he's a sweet and caring guy as well",Radhika tried to look practical again but we just said a big 'Ohhhhhh' in unison and got back to our favourite hobby,Laughing mindlessly.

So basically last night was superb. Every-time I'm with my friends,I'm reminded that life can be so simple and beautiful,we can find everything doing nothing and be ourselves and still be unique because its not the tedious days but the crazy moments spent with the weird people called friends that we remember.