My Deary,
Be miserable or motivate yourself or do whatever has to be done,atleast it will always be your choice...and in life every single choice matters!
Its been a while but I guess I didn't wanna confront myself about the recent events in my life.
That evening Varun PROPOSED me.All I could do was be stunned at that moment.Although I knew about it earlier.I couldn't help but feel surprised. Finally when my silence was too much to bear,he said"so you don't like me?".I was still silent.I couldn't say anything, I turned away from him.But I didn't want to give him thoughts about rejection.So I told him"I need time Varun,that's all" and left.I called Debika and told her everything.Unfortunately,her phone was on speaker and Savy was with her. Savy was 100% confident about Varun. She felt I should not have missed such an good opportunity. Debika knew I was not confident about it.She said "Varun is a great guy and we all know it ,do what you have to do,Radhika,you know better".Usually her advice used to give me direction but then I was still feeling confused.
The next day both my parents decide to ignore me as usual.I decided to bunk school that day.I knew Varun was a very genuine guy and he cared for me.But was I ready to jump into a relationship with him?!
Suddenly the doorbell rang and there stood Anjali with a pile of notebooks.She came to give my homework.I asked her to stay for a while as we didn't catch-up since a long time.After talking to her,I realized something and knew about my decision,my choice.I asked Varun to meet me as soon as possible.
There he stood tensed up.I said "I like you,a lot..since that very first day I was paired with you for the project".He asked "but?". I hesitatingly answered "but being fond of each other is not enough for a relationship,not according to me,there has to be love".He painfully said "and you don't love me!".I said "No..not yet but I am ready to fall in love with you,and I might in the future,but till then this can't work,I have seen Anjali and Aakash together,They broke-up cause they were never in love with each other and so are my parents!".He was still quiet."They are getting a divorce,and I still feel I don't know you enough,You alienate yourself when in pain,I can't handle that Varun,not in a relationship! but We still are friends and we never know it might be more than that in future "I said trying to justify myself."No! We can't be friends,not after this,everything has changed between us,you don't wanna be with me,fine!"he said angrily.And that has been our last interaction since a fortnight.He has been ignoring me since then.
My parents decided that I would be staying with mom.Instead of asking me,they just told me about their decision.I was sad that Varun misunderstood me completely but it was my choice atleast. I could own up to it.
Everybody must be wondering why according to me fondness,care is not enough for a relationship..cause I believe love is the one thing that keeps a person going,a relationship together,without it,we would have end-up just like Anjali and Aakash. Call me old school,but this is me!
Be miserable or motivate yourself or do whatever has to be done,atleast it will always be your choice...and in life every single choice matters!
Its been a while but I guess I didn't wanna confront myself about the recent events in my life.
That evening Varun PROPOSED me.All I could do was be stunned at that moment.Although I knew about it earlier.I couldn't help but feel surprised. Finally when my silence was too much to bear,he said"so you don't like me?".I was still silent.I couldn't say anything, I turned away from him.But I didn't want to give him thoughts about rejection.So I told him"I need time Varun,that's all" and left.I called Debika and told her everything.Unfortunately,her phone was on speaker and Savy was with her. Savy was 100% confident about Varun. She felt I should not have missed such an good opportunity. Debika knew I was not confident about it.She said "Varun is a great guy and we all know it ,do what you have to do,Radhika,you know better".Usually her advice used to give me direction but then I was still feeling confused.
The next day both my parents decide to ignore me as usual.I decided to bunk school that day.I knew Varun was a very genuine guy and he cared for me.But was I ready to jump into a relationship with him?!
Suddenly the doorbell rang and there stood Anjali with a pile of notebooks.She came to give my homework.I asked her to stay for a while as we didn't catch-up since a long time.After talking to her,I realized something and knew about my decision,my choice.I asked Varun to meet me as soon as possible.
There he stood tensed up.I said "I like you,a lot..since that very first day I was paired with you for the project".He asked "but?". I hesitatingly answered "but being fond of each other is not enough for a relationship,not according to me,there has to be love".He painfully said "and you don't love me!".I said "No..not yet but I am ready to fall in love with you,and I might in the future,but till then this can't work,I have seen Anjali and Aakash together,They broke-up cause they were never in love with each other and so are my parents!".He was still quiet."They are getting a divorce,and I still feel I don't know you enough,You alienate yourself when in pain,I can't handle that Varun,not in a relationship! but We still are friends and we never know it might be more than that in future "I said trying to justify myself."No! We can't be friends,not after this,everything has changed between us,you don't wanna be with me,fine!"he said angrily.And that has been our last interaction since a fortnight.He has been ignoring me since then.
My parents decided that I would be staying with mom.Instead of asking me,they just told me about their decision.I was sad that Varun misunderstood me completely but it was my choice atleast. I could own up to it.
Everybody must be wondering why according to me fondness,care is not enough for a relationship..cause I believe love is the one thing that keeps a person going,a relationship together,without it,we would have end-up just like Anjali and Aakash. Call me old school,but this is me!
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